freaking out about food, definitely not letting drb weigh me.
I’m going to try use my appointment tomorrow, be honest. I need to leave dead on time to get straight home otherwise I have 2hrs stuck in Lincoln. I usually leave a bit late esp. lately, plus arranging the next appointment.
I want to ask her to arrange the next appointment at the start but I am anxious about doing that for some god unknown reason. Do you think it will look weird if I ask? I just don’t want 2hrs in Lincoln after.
everything i eat is unenjoyable. i keep having moments of just shaking. i am scared of myself. so scared. scared of tomorrow. scared of tonight.
"I’m sick of ego, ego, ego. My own and everybody else’s. I’m sick of everybody that wants to get somewhere, do something distinguished and all, be somebody interesting. It’s disgusting— it is, it is. I don’t care what anybody says."
J.D. Salinger, Franny and Zooey (via poeticsofdeath)
"A first sign of the beginning of understanding is the wish to die…"
Franz Kafka, Aphorisms (1918)
"Her only thought was of getting away, as if she were carrying a live grenade from inside the house, so that when it exploded, it would destroy just herself."
Jennifer Egan, A Visit from the Goon Squad (via rauchwolken)
"never underestimate a mans ability to make you feel guilty for their mistakes"
"'It must be so comforting to know that you can stop living whenever you want,' said Fosca. 'Nothing then is irreparable.'"
Simone de Beauvoir, All Men are Mortal (via depressionparty)
what’s keeping me alive, again in my life.